We'd be held...

Held ...

I have bin resseling with trusting God a lot lately...
Not the 'why' of sovering it self made me wonder, but 'where were You, and what does trusting You mean?'
'Why do you say in Your woord 'don't be afraid? What does that really mean?'
But God really helped me out here.
He told me this:

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

When everything around us is unsave, ore when we live in pain, sadness ore are grieving. He will hold us in His arms...

My brother is coming!!!

I just talked to my brother.... he is in Thailand!!!!! And tomorrow he is gone be here, with me, and than I can see him, touch him, hug him, oh my goodness...

Bro, I can't wait....!!!!!!

the one you love...

Mam, ik mis je zo...





If you can't be with the ones you love, love the ones your with!!

I miss my family a lot. More than normal...
I think because I realias that I won't be home for a long time.
Because I know that it's not easy at home, thinks don't go that well. And I should be there!!!
But than, God told me to be here, in Thailand.

He most have a plan with my familie, He most know, He does care.

I'm all alone on they other side of the world. With a new familie.
And I pray for love... I need to be close to people, they need to be to. And aldo I can't be with the ones I love, I could always pray for so match love for the ones I'm with. So I won't be so alone...

Home of the Open Heart - YWAM Thailand

Thailand's Department of Public Health reports that per capita, Thailand has the most HIV/AIDs cases in the world. This translates into more than 14,000 AIDs orphans per year. Many of these will be HIV positive. Chiang Rai, one of the provinces worst hit by the Aids crisis, had no home for HIV positive babies. Project L.I.F.E. stepped in to meet that need with the Home of the Open Heart. Opened in December 2000, its heart purpose is to give HIV positive babies a loving home until their HIV status is determined. We also provide small group homes for babies who cannot be cared for by relatives. Home of the Open Heart is also committed to caring for HIV+ babies until they die. If a baby converts to HIV negative and is able to be adopted, Home of the Open Heart will release the child to have a family of their own! Our mission is to assist families affected by HIV/AIDs, through education, orphan care within the home and within the community, community visits leading to income-generation projects, and mother/child respite care.

Child, you still have my heart...

Four days now I worked at Baan Nam Jai (childrenshome)... and it was lovely. The children are so sweet and beautiful!
This is Hope, isn't see so beautiful?! I'm sure I'm gone love them like crazy. Not a problem!!







But than, it made me think of my children in Africa.... it makes me a bit sade. I miss them sooooo match!! Will I ever meet them again? Will they still know me? Will they still be alive? I don't know....

You still have my heart...














Love you Kylie, Love you Tando, love you Victor, Love you Tabysing, Love you Zoeki, Tjakanie, Vica.
Love you beautiful Annatemba, little Sesipo.
My dear Chris, Allowethu, Buhle, Sweet Sissi Cosa, quite Litha. Alshley, Asipee.
Love you Fuzie, Toets.... Timna and all they other beautiful ones!! I love you...

your mama noenes

Thailand...

So, I'm back in Thailand.
A few days I arrived. And from there it all has bin so unreall. Am I really back?
I guess I am!

A lot happend since than.
Lewis, Grayces cat (7 weeks old) roles in the house.
My first day in Thailand I had to save a froge. He was walking around with it in his mouth. The froge was still alive. So after a fight with the little cat and a bleeding finger, the froge was saved and on his way to freedom.


I went back to the base. It was so weart to be back there. There is no DTS!! Where is Kim? Will? Katie? Shane? Everyone? Anyone!?
I did see Fha, Pyarate, Peaw and Pi Soekam. And Num ofcourse. That was nice. Can you believe it!! This is gone be my new home.... what where they thinking???? Heheheheh, oh well, we will see!!!

I live in Thailand after all....




I already made new friends! That is quite new for me, normaly that takes for ever. I finaly met Sarah in reall live. It is a big etfanture to get to know here! But I like it. We already talked on they MSN for months, but now I finely met here!

And than, I met Jenny, my neighbour. She is so nice. Can't wait to spend more time with here!!!

Other than that, not match changed. We still eat rice every day. The Thai still speak Thai. Big C is still big and a way of losing all the facts of Thailand and just go for it! Bandu market is still there, full of live and so many things I never sow before, even after 6 months!!

What did chance do, I have my one bike!!! And I love it!!! And I am staff now, in sted of student. And Thailand is my new home now....

My love...afscheid nemen bestaat niet!

Mijn lieve lieverdjes, voordat ik ga nog dit!;


Afscheid nemen bestaat niet ....
Ik ga wel weg maar verlaat je niet
Mijn lief, je moet me geloven Al doet het pijn
Ik wil dat je me los laat
En dat je morgen weer verder gaat
Maar als je eenzaam of bang bent
Zal ik er zijn

Ik kom als de wind die je voelt en de regen
Volg wat je doet als het licht van de maan
Zoek me in alles dan kom je me tegen
Fluister mijn naam
En ik kom eraan



Zie wat onzichtbaar is
Wat je gelooft is waar
Open je ogen maar
En dan zal ik bij je zijn
Alles wat jij moet doen
Is mij op m’n woord geloven

Afscheid nemen bestaat niet

Ik kom als de wind die je voelt en de regen
Volg wat je doet als het licht van de maan
Zoek me in alles dan kom je me tegen
Fluister mijn naam
En ik kom eraan

Kijk in de lucht
Kijk naar de zee
Waar je ook zult lopen, ja, ik loop met je mee
Iedere stap en ieder moment
Waar je dan ook bent
Wat je ook doet
Waar je ook gaat
Wanneer je me nodig hebt
Fluister gewoon mijn naam
En ik kom eraan

Afscheid nemen bestaat niet...












Soraya en Selina, love you more than anything!